Knowing When to Say When

I've been getting a lot of pressure, I've been seeing someone pretty regularly and since this is a new phenomenon for me everyone is getting excited. That's great for them. Unfortunately I'm not there and doubt I ever will be with him. At what point do I just say "when"? Is there a time limit? A number of dates limit? Everyone is telling me to just stick it out - easy for them to say. Deep down I just don't feel it and I doubt another week or month will make a difference. I just feel terrible.

Is there any way to remain anonymous?

I've been "outed", it's ok because I don't give too many particulars about other people in this blog. I haven't said anything that embarrasses myself either.

Being online has it's good and bad points. I am on Facebook mainly to keep in touch with certain friends that I don't see that often. Suprisingly I have also made new friends (through introductions by others). Is Facebook the new JDate/Frumster? What freaks me out a bit is that I recognize too many people. I recognize faces that have contacted me on Frumster or have been sent to me on Saw You at Sinai. It's so weird! I meet people at parties, etc.. and I recognize them from Facebook! Would it be weird to say "hey I saw you on Facebook!" Would that make me a Facebook stalker? I admit that when someone wants to set me up with someone the first thing I do is check Facebook and 9/10 times they are there!

Is there anonymity anymore? Are we all on display? Does everyone really need (or want) to know how many chips I have in Texas Hold Em?

Biological Clocks

I went out to dinner with my friend this week and she told me some big news. She's pregnant. She's not married, I know she isn't dating anyone, so how do I broach the subject? She didn't offer so I didn't ask, she basically just told me that she felt she didn't want to wait any longer (she's mid 40's). I'm happy for her. She's an amazing person and has always been a fantastic friend. She will make a great mom and I'll once again be an aunt! As for me, I'm still hoping to do it the old fashioned way , marriage then kids. But, it's nice to know that there are options just in case.

An Update

A lot has happened over the past month.

A friend of mine is going through a personal crisis and I'm trying to do what I can, but it just isn't enough and I feel helpless.

I am once again living on my own and am finding that I like the solitude, but still wish there was someone there.

I went back to the hair sex guru and had another uncomfortable experience, I don't think I'll be going back.

The friend I decided to take to another level fizzled pretty quickly, physically it just wasn't there and while it is weird, we're still friends.

About a year ago I was sent someone on "Saw you at Sinai" and we decided not to go out after a phone call. I bumped into his friend before Memorial Day and he thought we should look into it again. We've been seeing each other (according to him we're dating) but I still have my issues. I like going out with him but...... I'm just not there yet, and he knows this, but he is willing to let me take my time.

I have a lot to say but....

I'm not ready to publish my drafts.