Yay it’s Friday! I’m so tired. So, I’ll sleep tonight but tomorrow my loneliness will once again seep in. I don’t find it hard to be religious. It’s what the religion confronts me with that makes it hard. Shabbat should be time for family, but to me all it is, is a time to make up on sleep and read a few books. Now that the day is getting longer it is almost unbearable. It’s hard not to turn on the TV just to pass the time.
I don’t go to Shul because I can’t stand the people there. I don’t go away because my friends are all married and even though I am there they will invite some married friends over so their kids can play together. This gets me angry. If you are inviting me, why do I have to hang out with another couple - especially since it always seems to be someone I can’t stand. It would be one thing if the other couple were friends of mine - but they never are. They are usually people I tried to avoid in High School and college and seeing them makes me cringe.
So to all marrieds out there, while we appreciate your invitation don’t think we’re crazy because we no longer want to come. Lets be honest. When I am home for Shabbat I can get about 16 hours of sleep. Why would I want to get no sleep, have to sleep on a pullout couch/high riser that your kids probably left some crusty food in - or something worse! I actually had one friend who put a mattress on the floor of her kids room and expected me to sleep there - with her kids. Oh and it sure is fun watching you yell at your kids and fight with your husband!
So my Shabbat may be long and lonely, but at least it’s clean and comfortable.
1 comment:
LOL I so agree with you. I have a friend that keeps begging me to come and I keep telling her no cuz honestly I have it so much better at home. If I come I'll be hired as her daughters babysitter/mother for the duration of shabbos and shabbos is MY day of rest..and also she needs me cuz she's so bored on shabbos. I'd rather be home with my pillow and books than entertaining bored ppl.
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