So an ex of mine seems to be continuing on his quest for being a serial Fiance. He called me because he didn't want me to hear it from anyone else. I'm pretty sure this is his 4th one - mind you he never goes through with it - but it still hurts. We broke up about 6 years ago - and no I don't want him back and I'm not jealous per se, but I just can't help feeling sad. Since we broke up he's been engaged to two people - I have not even gotten close. How can I not wonder what is so inherently wrong with me that no one wants to get close to me?
If I was like him and I led people on would I be happy? Truth is - he was the only person I ever met who I seriously considered spending my life with - but I was young then - now I wouldn't consider it. Do I give off some sort of cold vibe? I like to think I'm a warm person but maybe I just don't know how to show it.
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Maybe you are so burnt out and turned off that you don't let yourself open up? I know that when I first started dating I was very open, fresh and naive. Now I am much more cautious about what I talk about and how much about myself I give away in the early stage of dating because I've learnt from experience how horrible it feels to break up from someone that knows all your in's and out's.
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